Here is the Scoop
Ordinarily, I am a happy person who sees things in a positive manner.
Lately, more like the past six months or so, I have not been feeling myself. I have felt excessively tired and unusually negative. When I looked in the mirror, I felt as though I was looking at someone else's reflection. (I mean, I know I just turned 50, but I didn't think that would immediately make me look old. ha-ha) Not understanding what was happening to me was a little scary.
A few days ago, as I walked into the gym, I realized that I was letting the words of someone pull me down. This realization was not immediate, let me share with you how the ah-ha moment happened.
I found myself feeling sad and empty. I found myself just going through the motions of walking into the gym. Where is my gym key fob? It's in my purse, Where in my purse? I continued to dig in my purse for my gym key fob, as I did this I almost burst into tears. This sudden urge to cry caught me off guard. Holding back those tears, I found that gym key fob and swiped it. As I heard the click of the door the words "hold on just a minute" came into my head.
I stepped through that door and suddenly, my mind took over and I felt a surge of empowerment. Wait, did I have the power to change what was happening to me?
(As I write this and reflect, I actually am not sure how long I was standing in that foyer, it could have been seconds or longer, but I am grateful for the space that allowed me to take pause before stepping completely into the gym.)
I walked through the gym doors and went through my exercises, with each exercise, I could feel myself getting stronger, physically and mentally. I could feel my positive self coming back. Each exercise helped me to realize that for months, maybe longer, I had been allowing someone's opinion and hurtful words to consume me.
As I slowly began to climb out of that sad place, I started to remember the person I was, the one who would see a sunrise and feel the love of God shining on her. It was good to be back! Over the next couple of days and in the days to come, I will continue to practice looking at every situation with a positive lens. I am a work in progress.
My Thoughts for You
To anyone who is where I was at I would like to remind you what it says in Proverbs 12:18, "Careless words stab like a sword, but wise words bring healing." Do not let the careless words of others stab you, be true to you and be who God intended you to be.
My ability to look at things in a positive manner is one of my gifts. I realize this is not an easy thing to do, especially after my latest ah-ha moment. Looking at things with a positive lens takes practice. It is much more natural for us to let the words of others, specifically those we love and trust, tear us apart.
My Challenge to You
I would like to offer this challenge to you, take one negative thing a day and try to look at it through a positive lens. It takes practice, but I know you can do it!
We are all works in progress...stay positive, you deserve it!